Okay so again I haven’t been updating my blog. Here goes.The Last few weeks have been…….interesting. I do not wish to go into detail here, there is too much to list, and a lot that I would rather forget. I do not really know what caused me to lose such control of my life but something did, and now it will stop. As of now, I am regaining control of who I am and what I do.I may not go fully back to who I was before, but this is because the last few weeks has been an experience that has taught me a lot.I have made mistakes in the past. We all have. I would like to take this opportunity to apologize for such mistakes. I am sorry for the times that I have behaved completely inappropriately. I am sorry for the times I have seemed distant and I am sorry for the times that I have seemed needy/clingy or even obsessive. This has not been my intention.
I would like to thank those of that continue to stand by me, through the good times and the bad. I hope you know who you are. From the wider circle of friends I have to the close, you have done your part in making my life feel rather complete.
I do however also wish to point out that I do not want to make a big deal of it. Although there have been some major mistakes made in the last few weeks I also believe that so long as I regain control as of now then my life can be the best it has ever been.
I feel at home in the city of Wellington. I have stronger, more solid friendships than ever before, and I also feel content with the overall social status that I currently hold.
Although I cannot thank everyone I would like to thanks certain people in particular.
Owen, in recent weeks we have really bonded and I no longer feel so alone in the way I sometimes think. Thanks mate.
Dom, we met at the beginning of this year, I was determined to make good friends with the first person I spoke to in a lecture this year and I did. Thanks for not judging me through some of my difficult times.
Aidy, we also met recently but you also hold an ability not to judge me and always be supportive, important for a good friendship.
Sarah, thanks for being a supportive flat mate and a good friend.
And a thank you to everyone who sticks by me, who gives me the time of day and who considers me a friend. It means a lot to me.
Now, there are probably a lot of my pommy mates also reading this, I have not forgotten you, you’re still my mates too, even I don’t talk to as much. I hope you are all well, drop me a lone sometime.
I don’t want you to think this has been an emotional outburst, but more something I feel the need to do, and now is as good time as any. I am ready to move on from mistakes, and most importantly learn from them so that they are not made again.
So yes, really that is all I have to say.
In summary, sorry for my mistakes, thanks to my mates, and lets get on and have a fantastic future! I may make slip ups, I wont deny that, but keeping control is the key, and that is what I will now do. I will with luck be more chilled, more in control, work harder and enjoy life. I will be the best I can be because I know I can be. On perhaps a less deep note, I would say that after Friday I really do love my job, yeah its boring at times, but its really quite exciting at others, I love being part of a team that puts on these events at the stadium. I now feel part of it and it’s a great feeling.So yeah, have a good one people!Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Al
